Run-Down of the latest

Yesterday was quite the day:

Shelby:
Shelby had a MAJOR meltdown before school. I didn't handle it well. Again. So stinkin' frustrated with myself.
She had a seizure at school - Steve thinks it was due to her being completely out of control in the morning.
Shelby had another monster meltdown after school. I handled it MUCH better. So grateful.

Shane:
The kid's school had a fundraiser at Fuddruckers last night. Due to Shelby's issues, we didn't go. He was sad.
Shelby gets different consequences than Shane. He doesn't think hers are strong enough. He was upset.
He is on ADHD meds that make him not hungry. His friends weigh more than him. He was frustrated.
After Shelby went to bed early, the big boys had a "date" and went to DQ for some yummies. He was happy.

Steve:
He's had 3 total hip replacements. Lately he's been having more bursitis issues in his hip. To make matters worse, he's now having nerve problems in his leg/hip area. And he has a "rash" on his lower leg that seems to get better then comes back worse. Has he called the doctor? e-mailed his doctor? Nope!

Baby:
He had 2 sets of people over yesterday doing nursing-type evals and therapy-type evals. The ladies gave me wonderfully helpful information. For the past 3 days, Baby's been "off" - I called the Cardiology Clinic and talked to the nurse I adore two days ago. She doesn't think his signs are anything cardio or heterotaxy related. But something's "up" - but it's nothing the pediatrician could identify I don't think. Lots of prayers. He is now officially 4 months old, almost 18 weeks actually, is almost 10 pounds, 22 inches long, still in Newborn-sized clothes and diapers and other than the past few days, he has just been thriving. We are awaiting the official adoption worker's name to contact him/her. At least his file is in Adoptions vs. floating around. His first SW was trying to help fix his latest insurance issue.  His smiles are melt-your-heart awesomeness :)

Weather: It's been raining. A. Lot. We have 3 dogs and 2 cats. One of our dogs has been using the house as her toilet. Too. Frequently. I am becoming increasingly agitated at her.

Me: I'm slowly going back to low-sugar eating since I was realizing just how out of control I was becoming w/my eating disorder and how big I was looking in the mirror and how my clothes were fitting so poorly. I checked the damage on the scale and yup, I've done it again. So, back to healthy eating I go...well, I usually eat healthy,,,,it's the bingeing I do that, obviously, isn't.

My dad: Yesterday was 4 months since he died. It's been decided that his girlfriend and his sister will do a different "ceremony" with his ashes at a nearby lake than my family. Rejected in life. Rejected in death.  Sounds extreme but that's how I'm feeling. As Steve says - my purpose has been served. In this as well as a different situation with my Grandma.

Grandma: She's maintaining. The dementia meds helped for a bit. Now it's like she isn't on anything. I visit almost daily. We have lunch and play scrabble, usually. The baby smiles so big for her - it is breathtaking to watch :)  I call her every 2 hours. She has helpers 4-7:30pm every day. One of the last helpers allegedly stole food from my grandma. With what I pay for them, for them to steal...then again this is my grandma who can barely remember much telling me what she's missing - I see the irony in this...makes me wonder what else is missing. That helper is no longer coming to my grandma's.

Money: Sucks. Last couple months have been expensive with non-essential yet important things: Shelby's camp, Shane's camp, Shane's football, a BBQ, etc....so we are running low on funds. We are still waiting to be paid for Baby so when those checks finally do come in, we'll be doing much better. They are still working on homes who took in babies in July. Ummm - it's April. WOW!

Hospice: We received a call for a 3 month old baby boy born 9 weeks early who is ready to be discharged. He has a tummy tube and a morphine prescription. He needs a family to love on him until he goes to Heaven. We are one of the only medically fragile homes in the area so they called us. Because of Baby, we said no. Praying he's being treasured and adored by a wonderful family now.