Moment in time

I was on the phone w/the computer fix it people. Had 45 min before I had to leave to pick up Shane. Shelby had to go potty. The computer peeps said they'd call back in 5. Great. Take Shelby potty. Grab a diaper for Baby. They called back. Working with them while they try to remotely access my computer. Change baby. Times ticking to get Shane. Tube feed Baby. Still on phone. Need to go soon. Shelby has to go potty. Again. Ask the man to hold on for a second while I hooked Shelby back to lift system. Helping Shelby meant I had to lift Baby right after a feed. Recipe for disaster. Put her in pram. Grab suction. Times ticking. Call Steve from cell to ask about what time Shane REALLY gets out of practice. It starts raining. Man finally hangs up after giving me last minute instructions. Shelby wants to be left on the potty chair while I'm gone. Put Baby in car seat. Buckle her into car seat. Frantically head to school - don't want my boy to think I forgot about him...try to figure out where to park. Call Steve again. Wait for Shane. Baby has a seizure. Needs to be suctioned. Waiting for Shane. Has he already looked for me then headed the back way out of school to home? Mommy guilt. Praying Shelby doesn't startle while I am gone and do a head dive onto the tile floor. Finally see Shane. Phew! Baby's still seizing. Bad breathing. Zip home. Oreo barks at our arrival. Uh oh, hope that didn't cause a startle. Get inside. Wipe Shelby. Put her back in power chair. Clean up potty chair. Suction baby. Document seizures on my phone. Shelby asks me if she is "severely disabled" because that's what I told the computer man on the phone while trying to explain why I couldn't stay in front of my computer screen. My mommy heart hurts. Yes honey, that's what you are. She zooms off to get ready for her friend. I tend to "my" sweet baby. Talk to Shane. Take a breath. All is ok again. We made it. God is good & so is pizza delivery